As If By Rainbows

I’m feeling purified as if by rainbows, 
that span across the sky, from here to there 

I will touch your skin, to preserve that feel 
where my tears fall, and I know it’s real 

Feed me to make me feel unsafe
Repel me to warm my heart again 
Love me to make my soul crumble
glowing like fireworks coiled between my bones

I’m  feeling desolate as if by forest, 
that span across the land from here to there

I will inhale your skin, to preserve that smell 
where my roots grow strong, with hidden sounds of rain 

Feed me to make me feel unsafe
Repel me to warm my heart again 
Love me to make my soul crumble
glowing like fireworks coiled between my bones
violent beauty of everyday, standing here alone 

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If little by little then you stop loving me
Then little by little I will start to be free
Because I needed you like an addict needed a life
So once I’m through with you then I can start to see the light

On this day, where people run around with money
Buying bags and shoes and needless shit without no kind of worries
'Cause their love for this life
It is simply not right
No conviction, no morals, no principles, no fight

For anything that matters
No not even for themselves
I’m here by my own design
Despite the impact on my health

I just stood by 
and let you walk away from me
I didn’t even try 
suggesting living by the sea

Because romantic notions
Of finding the one
They have eluded me
And now the one seems to be gone.

But I don’t mind
Cause I can start it all over
I’ll find another one
And just pretend that you were her. 

As if rainbows ever existed anyway.